Understanding God's Psyche Part#1

In the three Abrahamic Religions, god has his own emotions and reactions towards Man's actions.

"The way of the wicked is detestable to Jehovah; but he loves those who follow righteousness (Proverbs 15:9)"

"Indeed Charity extinguishes the Lord's anger and protects against the evil death (Tirmidhi)"

In Judaism, god was very active and interacted with Man; wrestling with Jacob, talking with Abraham, and inflicting horrors on the pharaoh and his people . 

While in Christianity, god sacrificed his son to save humanity from the original sin and all the sins that followed it - which expresses inability to save humanity by simply bestowing grace and forgiveness and weakens the omnipotence of god -

In Islamic scripture, god grew distant and more mature than the god in the old and new testament, using messenger angels and introducing a materialistic and pragmatic approach - affected by Judaism - to protect the religion from being defeated by the cultural and political superpowers that were existing in that era. While the only real divine interaction with humanity was when god invited the prophet Muhammad to heavens specifically to mandate the five daily prayers of Islam in person.

But god never ceased of being personal throughout the origin of Islam; God sent his messenger angel with a verse to testify the innocence of the Aisha - one of the prophet wives - from the people accusations and gossips of adultery; making it one of the most personal and the most interactive verses in the Quran.

However, God's interactions with humanity has declined overtime and stopped right after the prophet Muhammad's death. Leaving only the room for wild guesses by theologians and believers for god's words and teachings.

God's interactions and interventions with Man are over and the only way to know god now is to have a leap of faith and believe in the mythology of their followed religion without asking too many questions especially the most important one; Why did god stop talking?

Modern Jews believe that god was misunderstood from the start; that god is not a personal god who interacts with humanity but he rather tests mankind's will and its adherence to his teachings. Similar beliefs can be found in Islam as well.

Christians see god as the entity that made the ultimate sacrifice and that for this divine entity of the creator, all their sins are more or less forgiven and their souls are saved by Jesus Christ Crucifixion.

Our Modern deduction of the entity of god became increasingly contradictory with the original beliefs and scriptures of god. The basis of these religion are on the support and the blessing - And occasionally the wrath and curses - of god towards his followers. 

To understand where the contradiction lies you need to understand first how primitive and old the three religions are. Religions are affected by the circumstances of their origination.

God's promised land was a dream of the Jews to return and rebuild their ruined kingdom(s) which they have assumed was destroyed due to their sinful behaviour. The land was promised in the scriptures and the religion took its orthodox form during the period of Babylonian Captivity.

The call for peace and humility in Christianity was due to its origins in a totalitarian and oppressive regimes that prosecuted Christians at first as a rouge Jewish sect then afterwards the Religion got the sympathy of the whole Roman Empire and was introduced later on as the official religion of the Empire and used the popularity of the religion to control the population

And the call for Jihad in Islam was due to its origin in a tribal, and militaristic environment that puts chivalry and battles won above humility, peace or a hope for circumstances to change.

All religions are the victims of their present situation and their beliefs are only based on their origins and their symbolic rituals.

Man only sees the biased truth as a justification of the injustice and cruel nature of the political and social themes of their origins and so are the explanations of the sudden lack of godly interactions and interventions with Mankind since the prophet Muhammad's death. Man only sees what he wants to see and explains it only as he wants to fit the truth where he wants in his struggle to find the eternal and divine entity that he belongs to it and which we call god.

Origin of the formation of cults

It is in monkeys nature to eat bananas. And thus it is only natural to eat them. Imagine a group of monkeys that are beaten up whenever they try to eat bananas. The monkeys will learn and adapt that bananas are "forbidden" then they will realize that eating bananas are punished. And when one day a new monkey could come with a different perspective and wants to eat bananas among the old monkeys, the monkeys will enforce the traditions of not eating the bananas and a struggle between the new tradition and the old tradition will conclude the prevailing tradition out of the conflict.

But who would beat the monkeys and enforce this illogical punishment? Is it God? Is it mankind? Is it the ever changing laws of nature? Regardless of whom, the punishment is bare of any values or beliefs at first. It exists only because of manipulation and the intervention of a higher power (e.g. a wise man, or a dictator, or a holy entity).

Before religion, before traditions and values, there were only norms and abnormalities. Tolerance was not an issue, there was no homophobia nor discrimination against females. Most of the animal society depended on heterosexual activities to survive but homosexuality was tolerated and ignored due to the absence of punishment (i.e. no banana beatings).

Then came the idea of a higher power that kills whoever it wants and spare whoever it wants. The violence of nature and the harsh standard of living in the prehistoric ages made humankind susceptible to following the rules set by nature and to believe in some higher power that would try to justify the "punishments" or natural disasters that are caused in certain times of the year.

Man became under the mercy of the mood of nature and the mood of the higher powers that must have been either a manifestation of nature elements or the controllers of these nature elements in more religion mature societies.

Thus mankind began enforcing laws to avoid the wrath of the gods/nature. Some culture decided to respect nature or to unite with nature, others decided to beg for nature's mercy, others decided that the best way is to present tributes to nature to change the nature's mood and to live peacefully under the nature's mercy.

And when a punishment and the primitive cult behavior began to take its initial form, traditions were born amidst a need to live by a code; a religious code where a man can live free of punishments and becomes safer under the protection of Nature. And from traditions and developed religious thoughts originate the human values; enforcing the concepts of cheating, loyalty, deceit, bravery, ownership, marriage instead of mating, etc. And when values were enforced they began interacting with traditions, with each other, and with Man's understanding of the universe and how he should live his life.

As the centuries went by, Monkeys began to diversify into different cults. Some cults believed that eating bananas and getting beaten is how a monkey should live, other monkeys has considered beating as a test, others considered the bananas as a very harmful cuisine for monkeys and they stopped eating bananas altogether enforcing a value of self-discipline and a harmony with nature, and the list goes on of the cults beliefs, traditions and the values originated from them.

Some religions were beaten by new and more satisfying explanation of life or a new and enhanced set of traditions and beliefs. Other religions changed to accommodate to the ongoing changes in mankind living standards and nature. 

And the monkeys struggle to understand how to peacefully eat a banana continues.

رثاء أنفسنا

مال هذى الأرض نعمرها فلا تعمر
حاولنا أن نُزهر والارض تفنينا
ونرضى بالأقدار عن مصابنا
قد مات أحمدنا والكل يرثينا
وفنى توفيقنا فى داره الأخرى
لكنه فى القلب خالداً فينا
قد عشت فى وجداننا حياً
واليوم تعيش أبد الدهر ناسينا
جهل من يجهلك يا قلب أمتنا
وما فائدة مُقلاتنا ولا أدب فينا
مسكينة تلك الكتب بلا كاتب
مسكينة تلك الحياة بلا عرّابها
مساكين نحن بلا من كان هادينا
كلا لم تمت ولم تفنى
رثاؤك لا يكفى ولن يكفى
وكيف نرثيك والحال يرثينا؟
وإن سُألنا أين أختفى الشباب
- عن أعراس أمتنا - فقُلنا
قد ماتوا فى قبرك يوم تعازينا
الموت يأتى للجميع لكنه
فى مصر يأتى دوماً لراعينا

The last time I write about you

Hi Dear,

If you are wondering if I still write about you; that will be the last time I ever do.
You have changed a lot in the past few years; gained a lot of weight and your looks changed a lot from the little cute girl I’ve known.

I know I've broken my promise to never leave you. But at least, I still keep some promises to you. Among the promises I keep is to always have a place for you in my heart. I have piled up everything that belongs to you in one tiny room inside me; All the memories, All the suffering, all the sadness and pain and abuse. and inside the tiny room there is still a red rose inside a small box that is covered with sand like a deserted house; I never touch it nor enter this room anymore.
I wanted you to know that this place in my heart though it's for you, you would never find a way back to live in it even if you tried and I know you will never try.

I wanted to say that blaming myself didn't help; blaming you didn't help; blaming humanity and blaming god didn't help either. I wanted to say that this tiny room will always tear my heart apart and shatter my soul with every memory leaking out of it.

I want you to know that I've forgiven you even before any apologies. I have always forgiven you even when I say I didn’t. And that though all the pain you still cause me, I wish you happiness and the love you deserve, and I wish you could find peace in your new home.

Before you get full of yourself, I am not stalking you. I knew about your relationship by coincidence just today. I was surprised that you were loved even though you are a narrow minded and an unbearable person (no offense intended). I want you to be sure that I have given you up a long time ago.

I have found plenty of homes in the past few years and I chose a beautiful haven for me. A girl that I love so dearly. A girl that accepts me as I am and knows how much I care about the people I love.

I kept another promise; I talked to her about you and she hates everything about our story, no one would blame her anyway and no one would blame her for hating you.

I want you to know that she is everything I love about this world and I am proposing soon; So wish me luck dear.

I wish both of us the happiness and the life we have wished to have. I wish that our paths may never cross again and that we'd find the closure we deserve to forget as we forgave.

May this be the last time I cry because of you.
I forgive you and I hope you find the kindness in you to forgive me as well.

Goodbye and Good luck .. My wise friend.

Sincerely,

God's Names Paradoxes - Islamic Critic Part 2

Let's continue from where we've left..

Part#1 concludes that God is merciful but will not oppose the will of man/or actions  in order for man to be judged right in the afterlife

Then God's mercy can be defined to be tending to the wounds of the evil caused by man and fate which is written by God

The concept of fate is the things that are out of man's control. such as date of birth and date of death, health and well being, etc.

The problem with fate is that it causes harm same goes for free will. Which makes God either harmful or generous according to the situation and our own fate and our own choices. However God has chosen a rather interesting phrase that his mercy encompasses all things and he will punish and torture who he wants at the same time. [Quran: Suret: Al-A'raf: Verse 156]

وَاكْتُبْ لَنَا فِي هَٰذِهِ الدُّنْيَا حَسَنَةً وَفِي الْآخِرَةِ إِنَّا هُدْنَا إِلَيْكَ ۚ قَالَ عَذَابِي أُصِيبُ بِهِ مَنْ أَشَاءُ ۖ وَرَحْمَتِي وَسِعَتْ كُلَّ شَيْءٍ ۚ فَسَأَكْتُبُهَا لِلَّذِينَ يَتَّقُونَ وَيُؤْتُونَ الزَّكَاةَ وَالَّذِينَ هُم بِآيَاتِنَا يُؤْمِنُونَ

And decree for us in this world [that which is] good and [also] in the Hereafter; indeed, we have turned back to You." [ Allah ] said, "My punishment - I afflict with it whom I will, but My mercy encompasses all things." So I will decree it [especially] for those who fear Me and give zakah and those who believe in Our verses 

And because fate is written by God and to assume that fate holds harm to man then either God's mercy is conditional (i.e. Not encompassing everything) or God never wrote harm in fate (i.e. Harm happens against the will of God) or fate is written without God's intervention (i.e. God has no will over humanity's fate thus lying about his ability to change anything in "Deus Ex Machina" style) or that God's Mercy definition is not clear to humanity and God's words are not compatible with humans' words thus leading to a conclusion of a defected tongue of God and inability of communication (i.e. God is neither Omnipotent nor Omniscient or he would be able to communicate or know a way to make us understand his words clearer)

Then God's mercy by the previous definition can include everything in general be it in life or afterlife. However, God's mercy excludes people who are wanted to be tortured and punished.
A contradicting phrase associating mercy with punishment and torture. Which puts judgement before mercy and forgiveness but not under the umbrella of wisdom.

Because due to the harms happening in life, judging and punishing seems like the purpose of creation inspite of the clear statement in Quran of the purpose of creation of both humanity and Jinns are to worship God and not to be judged in life. This makes judgment the reason ulterior to wisdom instead of vice versa and justifies eternal torture as a punishment for sins. [Quran: Suret Al-Zariyat: Verses 55, 56, 57, 58]

وَذَكِّرْ فَإِنَّ الذِّكْرَى تَنفَعُ الْمُؤْمِنِينَ

وَمَا خَلَقْتُ الْجِنَّ وَالأِنْسَ إِلاَّ لِيَعْبُدُونِ

مَا أُرِيدُ مِنْهُمْ مِنْ رِزْقٍ وَمَا أُرِيدُ أَنْ يُطْعِمُونِ

إِنَّ اللهَ هُوَ الرَّزَّاقُ ذُو الْقُوَّةِ الْمَتِينُ

And remind, for indeed, the reminder benefits the believers.

And I did not create the jinn and mankind except to worship Me.

I do not want from them any provision, nor do I want them to feed Me.

Indeed, it is Allah who is the [continual] Provider, the firm possessor of strength.

Another paradigm is that judgment is the quality assurance for a high end worshipers which is if working, it is by far one of the most inefficient quality assurances I have ever known.

The paradox of life purpose is that purpose originates from need and God does not need or because of absurdity of God which leads that God is not wise.

Another paradox is that God's actions are affected by individual and/or group behaviors depending on the circumstances inflicting divine punishment or divine bless and interacting with his own creations makes God is either manipulated (and not immutable) or illogical (i.e. According to God's absurdity hypothesis) and can not be rationalised.

Since the 1st conclusion beats the idea of God that leaves us with the conclusion that God can not be rationalised and is not Omniscient neither Omnipotent (i.e. due to "God in the language gap" hypothesis instead of "God in the science gap" hypothesis)

All of paradoxes cause can be described and justified in terms of language shortage that God's names are equivalent metaphors to his true censored nature and his true censored name. As for god in all scriptures has no name but his name is the adjective of who he is (i.e. "God" is a god).

Which in the end negates all limiting and inconsistent characteristics of God and replaces them with an origin word or phrase "God's word" or "God's name" which is not of Earthly origin.

For admitting the weakness of all Earthly languages we have got, it is to negate the perfection of the Holy scriptures ever recorded.

This means texts like Quran is not sufficiently written to describe God in an accurate way and humanity is unable to define the true name and true adjectives of god. which contradicts the following Quran Verse that states the Quran as a book that has all the knowledge embedded into it [Quran: Suret Al-Ana'm: Verse 59]

وَعِندَهُ مَفَاتِحُ الْغَيْبِ لاَ يَعْلَمُهَا إِلاَّ هُوَ وَيَعْلَمُ مَا فِي الْبَرِّ وَالْبَحْرِ وَمَا تَسْقُطُ مِن وَرَقَةٍ إِلاَّ يَعْلَمُهَا وَلاَ حَبَّةٍ فِي ظُلُمَاتِ الأَرْضِ وَلاَ رَطْبٍ وَلاَ يَابِسٍ إِلاَّ فِي كِتَابٍ مُّبِينٍ

And with Him are the keys of the unseen; none knows them except Him. And He knows what is on the land and in the sea. Not a leaf falls but that He knows it. And no grain is there within the darknesses of the earth and no moist or dry [thing] but that it is [written] in a clear record*.

*Clear record is often claimed to be the Holy book of Quran however some scholars do not agree with that interpretation and admit the Quran as another creation of God which has its own flaws as other creations have.

A parable to explain it further about a boy who brought a dog home. The boy fed the dog a fine meal full of meat instead of the leftovers. The boy is generous. Then he gave him medicine when he is sick. The boy is merciful. Then dog break a vase and the boy forgives thus the boy is forgiving.
Therefore, the boy is God according to the dog perception. and when the boy act harsh or leaves the dog hungry or ignores him, the dog will discard these events and will assume the same generosity, mercy and forgiveness from his master because his master told him to believe it is in his best interest and because he trusts his master. However, the dog's master is not necessarily perfect or a real god.

Humans either trust God and ignore any punishment for the sake of serving him or are angry animals who refuse to be treated harshly by life and thus see him as a tyranny both are driven by emotions not by any thinking methodology. (Please revise my article on the duality of proving a god)

Regardless, it seems safe to assume that God is not obligated and do not force himself to work by the definitions of his names (i.e. adjectives) which render his own names null and void.

A final parable to end my article..

Mr. Thomson is an excellent man. He does charity every weekend and he never break the rules. When his neighbour was killed they never suspected him because he is a good man who despite the ability of breaking the law, has forbidden (limited) himself from crimes. The police trusted Mr. Thomson and redirected their investigation into other suspects because they "believed" his word while some of the residents accused him bluntly of the murderer. But they have never found the killer since then and the police has never investigated Mr. Thomson because he is a trustworthy Veteran citizen. What they forgot is that not checking on him due to blind trust made him immune to law and corrupted him in return.

The indifferent world

Anger dwells
Peace floats
Love drowns
Cash flows

Time will pass
God will fall
People will die
So will us all

Thoughts are changing
Beliefs are torn
But without my fire
I am nothing at all

Hear my words
Heed my verdict
God is dead
Evil rules them all

سطور الكفر بالدعاء

لو تعلمون ما ينوء فى صدرى

لتركتمونى فى شأنى

أو أسديتمونى صنيع حسن

و وئدتمونى فى مهدى

لو تعلمون ما فى جحيم الفؤاد

ﻷطفيتم ناره بالدم و الحديد

و ﻷستللتم سيوف الغدر و الوعيد

حتى يفور الدم فى قرعات الطريق

فالموت رحمة لليائسين

و اليأس كفر

وللكفر راحة قبل الجحيم

والنوم راحة حتى الصباح

ناموا تصحوا

يأتى الصباح بالمتاح للآملين

إن تأملوا وخاب ظنكم

فلا تلوموا الله عن تقصيره

ولوموا تضرع الساجدين

أو اقتلونى حيث بصرتمونى

حتى يفور الدم فى قرعات الطريق

حتى يقوم الدم باخماد الحريق

الطفلة

مسرعة تعدو نحوى

احكى لى قصة يعشقها الاطفال

اجلس، تجلس تملؤها الأفكار

أصمت وهلة حتى أحدد نمط حكايتنا الليلة

هل احكى عن حب ضائع تملؤه الاسرار؟

أم عن فارس مغوارٍ طيب تدهمه الاخطار؟

أم عن ست الحسن بثيابٍ وردية يأتيها الأمراء؟

تفتح عينيها بتأمل ترجونى الاسراع

أصبح كجليسة طفلة تستجدى الابهار

فأحكى عن تنين ضائع فى جوف البركان

عن مركب فى فضاء شاسع يبحث فى الاكوان

أحكى كذلك عن بطل خارق يجعلها بأمان

تصمت وهلة بحكاياتى متأملةً لمعانى الكلمات

فطت فجأة من مجلسنا

ظنت خطأً فهم العبرة

فآتى برفق أحدثها

ألَّا توجد عبرة

لا يوجد معنى

لا يوجد مغزى لحكايتنا

أجلس أُكمل القصة بسوادٍ و آلام

لكن نظرتها ترجونى بنهاية تُفرحها

قد ملت أحزانى و سوادى

فلأتلطف

أقلب سرد القصة سعادة

ما ذنب فتاة أن تسمع قصصاً

تأتى بدموع طفولتها

أخلق من فكرى عبرة و مغزى

و تظل القصص بلا معنى

تنظر الى عينى خاوية

فتمرح تارة و تصمت أخرى

تأمرنى أن أفرح

هى لا تعلم

تأمرنى بغناء يشبه صيحات الديكة

هى لا تعلم

تأمرنى أن ارقص معها و الكل نيام

لكن تخجل من اطلاق واقعها سوى فى الاحلام

تخجل ايضا من شفقتها بحالى

فتحاول افقادى الحزن

وتحارب كى تحكى قصة

لم تعرف بعد نهايتها

تتعلثم فى عالمها الخاص
تصمت بتبسم و حياء
تتوقف عن سرد القصة

تسحب ذيل رداءِ الحرج و ترحل بضع سويعات

 تأتى لى متلطفةً

أحكى لى أخرى

فأعيد الكرَّة

و نعيد اللعبة

عن حب النهود

 قلبى يشكو من اهدابها الرعشاء

و محاشمى متطلعة لتضاريسها الوعراء

تهتز ثنيات ثيابها فترقص لها أعضائى

فتدب فى ثورة كما الغوغاءِ

فأظننى بلا مفر من نيلها

كيوسف فى غرفة بلا باب

فتمر بى نارٌ تدغدغ شهوتى
فازفر زفرة لهيبها شهوتى

ألا تُطفؤها نهودِك العجماء؟

قصيدة عابرة

أخاف أن ألهو فى ثنايا قلبك  

وأنا الغريق فى وسع عيناكِ

ولأن مسست كفك الرقيق لثمته

فما لثمت فى الكف سوى شفتاكِ

قد جئت جميلتى بعد المنية بالهوى

و خلبتى لب جمع الرجال فأشرقت

أرواحهم و طويتى أيام الضجر

و أضعتى فى جفناك الحياة بطولها

و جففتى بحار المر باسمكِ و تبسمك

فلمستى فى رقةٍ قلبى فانفتح

مثل الرضيع ﻷمه

لكن حبى علقماً يذبح شوقه

أشكو إليكِ تفهمك و تعقلك

أشكو إليكِ تحملك

من يسبح فى الذُعاف يقتله رحيقه

فلا تمكثى فى قلبى المنكوب ترجياً

قد آن وئده فى صرحك الواسع

آن الأوان لقتله فى مهده

و لتأتِنى قصة حبٍ تالية

500 days of myself

Sometimes, the beginnings don't matter. Sometimes, the endings are what define us and so let's begin with my ending. 500 days have passed since I broke up with this girl. Does it matter who said the word? Does it matter who ended everything? No, it does not. But i will tell you anyway. It is said that when you die, your soul is taken away from you. But what if it is the other way around? what if you are the one who have taken a soul away? what if I was the one who ended it?

I did not have a soul at birth. I have always felt cold and indifferent towards anything. I have always sought out her warmth and soul to keep living and I took a part of hers when I left.

It was a turning point in my life; not because of the breakup itself, but because what came before it that led to the drastic change that happened to me. It was the last straw in a long story full of disappointments and losses. People will always remember this event as the reason of my personality shift and I don't blame them for that. Because people don't look more than few centimeters ahead of them.

It is said that love is a heroin and I agree with them because the withdrawal had its toll on me. And for that my dear reader I thought it would be great if you know the story of a real love breakup. 

Day#1

At last I was free of the chains of love. Unfortunately freedom always comes with a high price. The pain was massive I couldn't practically live. I had to take an antidepressant to survive the first day.

Day#3

Friends didn't help. They could not handle me and despite of their support there was no difference. They have decided to give it time.

Day#4

Because of the side effects of the antidepressant, I had to quit. The pain kept coming like waves some were weak others were lethal but I had to endure.

Day#5

I bought a few expensive things. I couldn't bear the fact that I have the money for an engagement and I had to throw it all away.

Day#20

Through the struggle, I had a new friend, I owe her everything that is saved in me and every piece that is healed in me. Thank you!

And despite the help, I still had frequent pain.

Day#60

The pain and anger still here. I had a visit to the beach. I was hoping that would calm me down. But I couldn't feel any difference at all. Nothing works on me. I feel hopeless.

Day#80

I have tried to love another girl and it didn't work of course. More importantly, I came to realise that I love myself more than anyone else.

Day#100

I had an idea of counting the days until 500 days so that I would know what would be the results of my tale.

Day#224

New year's resolutions, It's a new start for me. I have decided to travel abroad and I started planning for this.

Day#250

I am totally in love with myself.

Day#283

And though the candy tastes beautifully, the taste of herring fish is still in my mouth. I still miss her and it tastes bitter and I came to realise how unhealthy this relationship was. And I couldn't help but missing her.


Day#326

I went to a play with my friend. It affected me to a way I could not fathom. I am thankful that I've watched it. It made my life easier and calmer.

Day#434

I went to apply for a passport and to prepare for my plan. That is when I saw her. That is when I knew I feel nothing for her anymore. No hearts skipping a beat, no childish smiles, nothing at all.

Sometimes we meet only to part.
And we see each other only to know there's nothing left.

Day#487

I have determined to regain all of my lost abilities and torn away pieces. without losing anything I have gained.

Day#500

I have waited for that girl that calls Autumn to love (as happened in the movie). But unfortunately I didn't find one. I am good and feel well. I do not need my other half because I am a whole being. I have supportive friends and a great life ahead of me. I wouldn't waste it.

God's Names Paradoxes - Islamic Critic Part 1

Let me begin with a parable. There was a kind farmer who have a barn full of chicken. The farmer treats his animals gently and with great care thus he is caring, kind, generous and merciful. However, When a hen lay eggs the farmer take half of her children (the eggs) and sell them. The chicken mourn the loss of their children but thank the farmer as he knows better. To them there is no contradiction between killing their offsprings and stating the farmer as a merciful man. And so they love him and thank him for everything and with hope they tell themselves that these unfortunate incidents will not reoccur though it may happen because "it's the natural course of life". So they pray to the farmer to lessen the damage and beg for mercy.

While the chicken never realised the contradiction, most of religious people never realised the nature of definitions as limiters of behaviour. And for that I will tell you another parable.

A plant was bothered by the quality of soil and water it gets from its surroundings. It decided one day that it will move to another location and to do that it dragged its roots out of the soil and began to walk on its own. Then it died out because of water and nutrition shortage. The plant forgot that it has no legs and it is not an animal.

Being a plant, it has to get enough water (from water drops and water inside earth) and nutrition (by different means) and is characterised of having roots and the ability to perform photosynthesis to feed itself.

Which defines the plant's needs and the plant's traits and also explain that plants are not animals and limits the nature of plants to be unable of being animals (at least generally speaking).

And therefore, If definitions limit the defined entity and its behaviour And God is limitless, then God cannot be defined and can not be good nor evil because if God is good then he is limited by his goodness and his actions are unable to affect any person (or creature) badly. So the definition of God limits his power and makes him limited with his choices regarding his relation with man; and so does defining God as Evil.

God and man have an interactive relationship since the beginning due to the hypothesis of free will of man that leaves God without control over mankind yet he is all good, omnipotent, omniscient, immutable, and cannot be manipulated and free of needs.

But If God's names limit his actions and/or interactions toward the free will of man then God may be omnipotent but he is not limitless. And thus emphasises the inability to define a god through his actions, ideology, or through the creation of the universe and laws of nature.

According to Islamic scriptures there are 99 great names of God; he who knows them all will be in paradise. And though there are several disputes among Muslim factions regarding what are the 99 names, Most of them were agreed upon by all Muslim scholars and they include the following names: The forgiving, The merciful, The generous, The Great, The wise, The just, The Giver (of bless, fortune, health, etc - pronounced as "Al RazzaQ"), and The Truthful.

And measuring by Islamic scriptures, Since God will close the door of forgiveness on judgement day, therefore God will change (not immutable)

This brings the radical contradictions of God's definitions as though God is merciful, sinners will burn in hell for eternity. Going along with this hypothesis, thus God's mercy does not include the afterlife. It is limited within certain conditions and is not absolute in nature. Such assumption leads to either disproving the immutability, forgiving nature and mercy of God or God's nature of overriding its own definitions.

Consequently, That means justice is above both mercy and forgiveness to be able for God to judge and punish who deserves punishment. This means justice overrides both mercy and forgiveness. However, Wisdom can, will, and is to discard justice in occasions and based on this perspective of facts or bliks (perspectives as described by professor R.M. Hare in a paper responding to professor Antony Flew's Theology and falsification paper), It's safe now to assume wisdom's leadership among previously mentioned definitions.

Let's generalise for both life & afterlife. God now is mutable, merciful, forgiving, and limitless within the boundaries of self-conditioning of self-defining its own entity (all of the assumptions are based in general Islamic ideologies and according to classic Islamic philosophy)

The boundaries are manifested by God and controlled by God but they are still there as God is a self-governing his boundaries in an arbitrary way in order to keep the definitions of his names valid. And thus Boundaries in wisdom limit all of the other characteristics inconsistencies of a god and makes God's definitions go altogether governed by wisdom.

However, The limiting of wisdom represent the paradox of the omniscient God that is unable of creating consistencies among his own definitions

For example; Famines and other monstrosities frequently happening on Earth leading to discard the mercy of God from life this is a disputed fact that this is not of God's concern to intervene in the sins of people before the judgement day or that this is not God's doing and was resolved in Islamic philosophy by the claim that all of the wrong and evil in the world is from man and that anything good is from God quoting below two verses stating this belief  [Quran:Suret Al-Nesa':Verses 78,79]

أَيْنَمَا تَكُونُواْ يُدْرِككُّمُ الْمَوْتُ وَلَوْ كُنتُمْ فِي بُرُوجٍ مُّشَيَّدَةٍ وَإِن تُصِبْهُمْ حَسَنَةٌ يَقُولُواْ هَذِهِ مِنْ عِندِ اللَّهِ وَإِن تُصِبْهُمْ سَيِّئَةٌ يَقُولُواْ هَذِهِ مِنْ عِندِكَ قُلْ كُلٌّ مِّنْ عِندِ اللَّهِ فَمَا لِهَؤُلاء الْقَوْمِ لاَ يَكَادُونَ يَفْقَهُونَ حَدِيثًا

مَّا أَصَابَكَ مِنْ حَسَنَةٍ فَمِنَ اللَّهِ وَمَا أَصَابَكَ مِن سَيِّئَةٍ فَمِن نَّفْسِكَ وَأَرْسَلْنَاكَ لِلنَّاسِ رَسُولاً وَكَفَى بِاللَّهِ شَهِيدًا

Wherever you may be, death will overtake you, even if you should be within towers of lofty construction. But if good comes to them, they say, "This is from Allah "; and if evil befalls them, they say, "This is from you." Say, "All [things] are from Allah ." So what is [the matter] with those people that they can hardly understand any statement?

What comes to you of good is from Allah , but what comes to you of evil, [O man], is from yourself. And We have sent you, [O Muhammad], to the people as a messenger, and sufficient is Allah as Witness.

This claim is a first of its kind to directly blaming humankind for all of the wrong doings and evil in the world which may represent the root of truth. However, giving all of the credit of all of the good things that may occur to anyone to God is something that can be overwhelmingly disputed and questioned; putting aside eight thousand years history of civilisation and developing good to humanity into the trash; Explaining why many Muslim scholars nowadays consider science as the science of knowing religion and scientist as people who have studied religion.

Indeed, some good comes from human inventions, however this is explained by another verse [Quran: Suret Al-Shams: Verses 6 to 10]

وَنَفْسٍ وَمَا سَوَّاهَا

فَأَلْهَمَهَا فُجُورَهَا وَتَقْوَاهَا

قَدْ أَفْلَحَ مَن زَكَّاهَا

وَقَدْ خَابَ مَن دَسَّاهَا

And [by] the soul and He who proportioned it

And inspired it [with discernment of] its wickedness and its righteousness

He has succeeded who purifies it,

And he has failed who instills it [with corruption].

Which is in Islamic philosophies makes every good and bad returned to god (AKA Allah) and hence all of the great ideas that changed humanity's history was essentially "permitted" by god to be thought of by the great thinkers/scientists who have developed it and applied it; stating in a firm belief the godly interventions in humanity's life is possible and leaving more questions to answer regarding nature of god.

And by this I shall end part one of my article.
[to be continued]

أحبك بقلم ضائع لشخص بلا اسم

حبيبتى .....

لقد الفت لكى الف قصيدة

و نسيت نصفها

اعذرى نسيانى لها

فقد شغلتى بالى عنّها

وصار وردنا الأحمر رمز حبنا

و صرتى أنت رمز حياتى كلها

أحبها

و ان كان قلبى يخفق

فقد خفق لشوقى لها

عزيزتى

لقد قالوا انى لن اجد حياتى

لقد قالوا لى لا تبحث عنّها

فليس هناك احد مثلها

و لن تجيئك الملائكة

و لكن ملاكى قد جئتى

و ملئتى فراغ قلبى

داويتى جراح نفسى المثخنة

كإلهةٍ متملكة

و بكلمة واحدة

قلتى لا تحزن حبيبى

انا معك

فكنت كما تشائى

فلم يبق للحزن مسلكا

ها انا ذا امامك

كما كنت تريدين

قد كنت فارسك الحزين

ابحث عنكى فلا اجدك

و تبحثى عنّى فلا تجدين

ها انا ذا امامك

فماذا ستفعلين؟

أتبقين؟

فقد زال الالم عنى

و من مزقنى بفراقه أتى يسعدنى

بابتسامته يبهجنى

بجنونه يطربنى

ها انا ذا امامك

نفس فارسك القديم

و درعٍ جديد

ها انا ذا امامك

راسماً حبك على وجهى

واشماً عشقى فى جوارحى

فماذا ستفعلين؟

احبك

كما لم احب من قبل

احبك

مهما فعلتى

و مهما اصابك من تغيير

أحبك مهما سأمتى

و مهما طغيتى

و مهما رسم الزمان من عناء

على وجهك الجميل

انى احبك

لكونك انت

لكونك حياتى

لكونك بروحى تتملكين

اسلمت قلبى لكى

هل تسمعين؟

نزعت درع قلبى لتدخلين

رجاءً ابقى معى

و ان كنتى من قبل تحلمين

تتمنى حبى بدلال

و تتمنعين

فها انا ذا

 ملك يداكى الرقيقة

عبد هوى حبيبتى

وقد كنتى دوماً فى قلبى

بعيدة عن صفة الصديقة

فتلطفين

و يزيد شوقى لكى

و يغمرنى فيض الحنين

و أجول فى قصائدى

و تجود من فيضى معانى

تغيب عن وحى الكليم

فأغرقت بحور شعرى 

و بللت أروقة المعانى

وقتلت اصوات الإله

وصبحت باسمك مستعين

لأقولها دوماً

احبك الان

و للأبد

و إلى ما بعد الممات

و قبل خلق العالمين

20/03/2009 - منقحة

من كلماتى و بقلم ضائع لشخص بلا اسم

مجلسنا الصامت

سلامٌ على أرواحنا المعذبة

أرواحنا الهائمة فى الألم

أرواحنا التائهة بلا رجعة

عن اليقين و عن الحقيقة

سلامٌ على نيران البرد

و على حزننا الفَرِح

و حبنا المكسور

سلامٌ على رب لم نلقاه

و قلباً لم نرعاه

و روحاً لم نُحييها

و زمناً لم نعشه

سلامٌ على مرورٍ لن يأتى

و خسارةٍ بلا بديل

و عين نفدت دموعها

و صلاة فقدت خشوعها

سلامٌ على أحلامنا الناعمة

سلامٌ على واقعنا العلقم

سلامٌ على حرب مرت بنا

و جرح لا يُشفى

سلامٌ على سواد الكون

على سراديب القدر

سلامٌ على نار تكوينا

و على نفس تغوينا

The painful curse of Entropy

Have you ever heard about Entropy?

The randomness that makes fluids mix easily. And the urge of finding stability through losing excess energy and exerting effort to reach peace.

That is why bodies fall from the sky; to be stable on the ground and that is why we – humans – fall. All for the sake of peace, equilibrium, and balance.

Sometimes, there is no bottom to our fall. Sometimes equilibrium goes on indefinitely and we don't break our necks on the ground floor and that of course increases the entropy of our fall. Increases the randomness of our choices and decisions and makes us lose energy, money and very possibly people to reach this desired balance.

We begin with the outer most energy/electrons/people shell. Where people get lost easily and sometimes we fill them again with other electrons. Then we lose more people from the intermediate shell until we reach the first shell.

However, some isotopes that tend to break, have high energy released, the energy of last moment of death. Because after releasing this energy the molecules break and become something else. A deformity if I dare to say. And if they have enough high energy, the release may turn out to be a nuclear explosion. This is all for the sake of stability.

Why would you endlessly fall, endlessly explode, or endlessly lose?

Why?

Of course because you have energy. You won't stop until you reach the absolute zero because the problem with equilibrium is that you won't be able to keep it unchanged unless you have nothing and take nothing.

As the universe is designed this way, the reason behind being in absolute loss and consequently absolute agony is due to your endless struggle to be in absolute peace.

And that is why my friend whenever you lose to gain balance you only lose yourself and you only feel more pain. This is the curse of Entropy and search for peace and happiness. This is how you lose stability and balance in the process of seeking stability and balance. And this is the law that God placed upon the universe we live in. You ask me what am I going to do about it? Nothing, and I hope you do the same too.