I see him
Fallen on the ground
I carry him
Put him in the car
Check his blood pressure
But my hands are too shaky and I can't
Carrying him to the emergency room
My glasses fell down and broke
And I can't see him anymore
They told me he's dead now
And my whole body shivers
And I fall down to the floor
Can’t move my body for several seconds as I got myself a temporary paralysis
And through my memories a single drop from my eyes is on my cheeks against my will
Then the flow of memories is back again
Through all of the pain
I remembered what I should say which is "Thank you God for everything"
Then I stand up
On my feet
Telling myself
Not yet
Not now
Struggling to minimize the damage to my mother
I resist being paralyzed temporary or for the rest of my life
Hitting my arms and shoulders to the wall so I could feel them again
Calming down
You don't have time for tears
You will have to call your friends to aid you
Before your parents get to the hospital and find out
Hardly remembering their numbers
You call them
And so when you fall you will only be caught from true friends
And you will be loved and supported
Forever
Happy birthday my kindest brother
I miss you
30/6/2011
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